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          I  AM  HEALED!

I want to share with each of you the glorious blessing the Lord has bestowed upon us.  As I have said in my earlier writings I was diagnosed with LUPUS (SLE) nearly 20 yrs ago, I was turning forty and I am now sixty years old. 

Just prior to being diagnosed with Lupus, the Lord told my husband and myself that He was "leading us into the Valley of the Shadow of Death, that this was a path where many lose their way".  He went on to tell us that if we would "stay focused on Him, taking one step at a time that we would come through stronger in Him".

It was within the first few months of my fighting with Lupus, when the Lord told me He would "return to me every thing the enemy has stolen".

As the years progressed the doctors put me on steroids many times, which caused me to gain an believable amount of weight.

I suffered a lot of nausea along with the pain and fatigue of Lupus and I soon discovered “Mint Chip ice cream”, this was yummy and would not upset my tummy. I would love to blame all the weight gain on the meds, but in all honesty I developed a real love for sweets, in fact it became an addiction.  I would crave sweets, along with my “diet Pepsi” go figure.

Anyway, it’s been a really rough 18 – 19 yrs to say the least.  Twice my husband and I fought off the spirit of death from around me. There were times we knew the doctor would put me in the hospital and I would refuse to call him, saying I new the Lord would take care of me, and He would.

I once thought pain was pain, not so. There are degrees of pain, and it seems with Lupus it’s from moderate to severe, never mild.  Pain along with extreme fatigue is something Lupus patients fight most days of their lives. The fatigue is such that there were times I couldn’t talk; it just was too hard to move my mouth.  My arms would often be like lead, they would hurt and be too heavy to lift let alone hold anything.

I’ll never forget while standing in church one Sunday morning, I was holding my baby granddaughter when without any warning my arms gave way. The Lord in His love and protection moved my husband to reach under my arms and catch the baby instantly as my arms dropped. It was a miracle if there ever was one.  No way could he have done this in the natural.  Needless to say this was the last time I ever held a baby without something under me to catch it if I should drop.

I just mention these things to give you a small hint of what it was like.  Facial rashes as well as mouth sores, my eyes would rip which hurt so badly.  I had to give up pretty shoes as my feet would burn like fire.  So many things are involved with Lupus, not to mention the memory.  We won’t go there, it’s enough to say it would really beat me down.

There were so many years of this, and yet all through it we could see the hand of God on my life. When I was called to minister the Lord would always give me the strength needed.  When the anointing would lift I was as weak again as a kitten.  When I say weak, I mean my husband would have to hold me up.

On top of all the trials involved with living with a chronic disease, there were those dear fellow Christians quick to tell me that I had no faith or I would be healed.  I was told there must be some hidden sin in my life, as well as lack of faith, then of course the one about not surrendering to the Lord.  I knew it was all in love, but oh my, the church can be so hurtful at times.  There were times I wouldn’t go to church because it wore me down so bad.

Several months ago I began getting much worse.  My primary care physician sent me to a new Rheumatologist in hopes he could be of help.  It took a good month before I could get in; in the interim I began feeling pretty good.  This new doctor took all the blood work, and when we returned in two weeks, Dave and I were told the Lupus had completely left my body.  If Lupus were in remission it would show in the blood… there is nothing of LUPUS in my blood!

There is no doubt I had LUPUS, through our many moves I had been diagnosed by several Doctors including two Dermatologists and three Rheumatologists.


The Lord has removed this dreaded disease from me.  There is no cure for Lupus known to man.  But through our Lord anything is possible.  Glory to GOD!

As of right now I am still fighting Fibromyalgia and Arthritis, but I know the Lord is still healing me. I have been in a wheel chair for years while shopping and for the first time in many years I walked through two stores yesterday, without any back or hip pain at all!!  We are so excited. 

One day I realized the Lord took my craving for sweets. Glory to God for this too.   

As for the weight, I have lost sixty pounds and the Lord is taking the rest off fast.  This is my season! 

Healing is not the result of my faith or lack of which, it is the Lord’s will for me to be healed and His timing, not mine.  I also want to say the Lord gained a lot of Glory from my battle with Lupus and I gained a lot of spiritual insight through it.  I never want to repeat it, but I can say I am blessed for having experienced it. 

Our healing was given to us on the cross.  But there is no mention as to when our physical healing is to take place.  Remember, there are all kinds of healings.  We are promised to be hesaled either now on earth or as we cross over into glory.  Either way, as we walk in the Lord and leave the timing of our healing up to Him, then peace is ours. 

Isa 53:5 But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our guilt and iniquities; the chastisement [needful to obtain] peace and well-being for us was upon Him, and with the stripes [that wounded] Him we are healed and made whole.

Thank you for all the prayers and love shown to me during this battle.  It was horrendous, but well worth it.  As we keep our eyes on the Lord and remind our inner self not to give up that the Lord loves us and has us in His care then what have we to fear or dread?

Here are a few of the scriptures that brought me peace while fighting this disease:

Isa 40:29-31 He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound]. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted; But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.

Isa 41:10 Fear not [there is nothing to fear], for I am with you; do not look around you in terror and be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties, yes, I will help you; yes, I will hold you up and retain you with My [victorious] right hand of rightness and justice.

Isa 26:3-4 You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You. So trust in the Lord (commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages].

Prov 3:5-8 Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding. In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; reverently fear and worship the Lord and turn [entirely] away from evil. It shall be health to your nerves and sinews, and marrow and moistening to your bones.

Ps 139:14  I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.

Ps 138:8  The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, endure forever--forsake not the works of Your own hands.

Ps 107:20  He sends forth His word and heals them and rescues them from the pit and destruction

Ps 100:3 Know (perceive, recognize, and understand with approval) that the Lord is God! It is He Who has made us, not we ourselves [and we are His]! We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.

One of my favorite scriptures is this:

Ps 42:11 Why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me? Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my God.

There are so many more wonderful scriptures that I would speak throughout the day.
When I feel sorry for myself I will often say, “Carol cut it out,
why are you cast down, O my inner self? And why should you moan over me and be disquieted within me? Hope in God and wait expectantly for Him, for I shall yet praise Him, Who is the help of my countenance, and my God”.  And it really helps me get refocused.

For those of you still fighting a disease, it’s vital for you to stay focused on the Lord, speaking His word and resting in His peace, knowing the healing is yours at His timing. 

Refuse to put on the hurtful condemnation of those not understanding the Biblical passages on healing, they mean well but it does hurt.  Use this time to draw closer to the Lord.

Be blessed and I am praying for each of you that read this page.